living with an opening closing opening closing heart…

“Your hand opens and closes and opens and closes. If it were always a fist or always stretched open, you would be paralyzed. Your deepest presence is in every small contracting and expanding, the two as beautifully balanced and coordinated as bird wings.” Rumi

Bird on the Wing at Day Break by Richard Dennison

This has been a struggle for me over the past while-this opening and closing. When I say me- I quess I really mean “my mind”. It has been painful to feel the opening of my heart, which had been closed for most of my life; and then to feel it shut tight in defence when I feel hurt.
Dear Rumi breathes spaciousness back into my conflicts with his gentle wisdom. He reminds me to slow down, become aware and notice. Notice when I am open and notice when I contract. My mind’s role is to be present and witness the surge of emotion and sensation, to ‘allow those movements’ and to hold space for them to flow. Not to treat them as a puzzle to be solved, or a character building lesson, or a failure of love or circumstance.
Discovering meaning in our lives by paying attention to the signals and subtle signs is part of the Art of Living; the Craft of Life. But we discover these signposts in places that we normally do not explore. We will be less successful if we try to process everything through the mind- to think, think, think until we understand. Try exploring a feeling; try tracking its place in your body and expressing it through movement rather than thought or words. Try making a sound not based in language.
The need to name things is an inheritance of our western culture. It is not always helpful. It actually produces barriers to understanding in the true sense of the word- understanding can drop into consciousness like a light in a dark room without words to list and catalogue the learning! Yes, its true. We not be able to blog everything we learn and reduce it to a 3 point sermon or motivational speech!!
Imagine resolution coming to a misunderstanding or hurt in your relationship through a hug, or loving touch without ever needing to say the words- or name a victor. These moments can be as deep as anything we will ever know.